Mandy from Essex, married for 15
years. I dress weekly at home on Saturday afternoons, just to do the
chores and various things around the house. A man is seen as tough,
not expected to show emotions, take control. A woman is seen as someone
who needs to be protected by a Man, almost as if a woman is a possession
of a Man.
What is your name and what is your background?
My name is, Mandy I have been married
for 15 years, and live in Essex on the east coast. I have dressed to
some degree since an early age.
Is your name an alter ego
"femme" name - why did you choose that name?
Mandy, My name was chosen for me by
my work colleagues when I came in dressed one day to raise funds for
children in need. Since my name is Andy, they thought it would be a
good idea just to stick an 'M' in front of it for the day. It has stuck
How old are you and how young
were you when you first thought about or actually cross-dressed?
I am currently 39, and can remember dressing actually dressing since
school, although my sisters do tell me they once dressed me as a bridesmaid
when I was very young. Unfortunately I cannot remember this.
Where do you buy your clothes?
I tend to buy my clothes from various
outlets, Evans are always good for my larger frame, I have also brought
from Lady B Wear, and various mail order catalogues.
What leads you to choose the
styles you wear?
I tend to look through the womens weekly and monthly magazines, and
this gives me some inspiration for style. Otherwise, if I am out shopping
and just see something, I will just buy it there and then.
Do you have one look or many
I used to have many, many looks, but as I become more experienced I
tend to maybe have a couple of looks now. Casual day wear which ranges
from denim minis teamed with various tops and boots to trousers, and
glamorous evening wear for nights out on the town.
Is make-up and hair important
to you and if so how do you achieve your look?
Yes, make up and hair is very important, as without these looking just
so, it spoils the whole appearance. I have approximately half a dozen
wigs of varying lengths and styles to suit varying moods and styles
To what degree do you practice
hair removal, and other body feminisation?
I shave my legs, chest, arms and underarms weekly.
Who knows you dress?
My sisters and my Mum and Dad have
seen photos of me dressed, but I have not told them I am a cross dresser,
although I think they have their suspicions but seem fine with what
I have done. All of my colleagues at work know, and a few friends as
How often do you dress and
if you go out where to?
I dress weekly at home on Saturday afternoons,
just to do the chores and various things around the house. I do not
get out that much, something that I really hope to rectify in the very
near future. If I do go out, it is normally to the work's annual Christmas
party. I did attend the Transfandango ball last year that was absolutely
What is a man and what is a woman?
A man is seen as tough, not expected
to show emotions, take control. A woman is seen as someone who needs
to be protected by a Man, almost as if a woman is a possession of a
What is your definition of
Gentle, kind, sympathetic.
Where do you feel you fit on the transgender
spectrum CD TV TS?
I believe that I am now CD.
Are you happy to be called a tranny
or a drag queen or does that offend you?
Tranny is fine, not a problem, better
that some things you could get called, I think tranny is a friendly
To what degree do you feel gender
dysphoric (i.e. that your brain is feminine)?
I do not feel gender
dysphoric, I know I am a man and do not want to become a woman, although
when I am dressed, I do act differently.
To what degree would you consider
permanent hair removal, hormones, surgery?
I would like to
have permanent hair removal, but costs rule that out currently, I would
not consider hormones or surgery.
What individual has inspired
you most in relation to your TG inclinations?
So many people in fact, but if I had
to choose, I guess it would be my mum, after seeing Mandy's photographs
she loved them. She has two of them enlarged and framed and hanging
proudly on her wall. She feels that I am still the same person no matter
what I am wearing.
Do you feel you have any choice
in your TG thoughts and actions?
Yes I believe it
is up to me what I do and what I wear.
Have you ever suffered harassment
No abuse or harassment,
you do get the odd jeering from younger lads if they read you, but overall
everyone is very accepting. The main proof of this is my annual invite
as Mandy to the Christmas party at work.
Have you tried to stop?
Yes I did try
to stop, after leaving school, I threw away all of my feminine clothes,
a total purge, but the need did not go away, so I had to build up my
collection all over again.
Are your sexual preferences
changed by your TG experiences (even temporarily)?
I don't think
so, I have sometime wondered what it would feel like to be kissed by
a man whilst dressed, but have not pursued this at this time.
Have you suffered illness, depression,
relationship break ups because of being TG?
No I have been
very lucky and suffered non of the above.
If you could relive your life
without the TG experience would you choose to?
No, I get too
much pleasure from the whole experience, its almost like living two
lives sometimes, to relive without the experience would I think be rather
Do you feel that releasing your
"gender gift" has released creativity (poetry, music, art) that may
otherwise have remained repressed?
I am involved
with an amateur dramatics group, and always seem to get cast as the
dame when its Pantomime time, I do believe that my gender gift has played
a part in this.
Have you ever performed and
if so how did you get into performing and what have you done?
As mentioned previously,
I have performed as dame in pantomime for several years and have also
managed to play various other girl parts in other performances. My standout
performances was probably that of miming to Kylie's "Cant get you out
of my head" which seemed to go down rather well with the audiences.
What outstanding TG experiences
stand out in your mind?
2003 Transfandango Ball in Manchester is without doubt the first standout
experience. Being around so many like-minded people was great, not having
to worry about anything like odd looks, name calling etc. Being able
to spend the whole weekend en femme was a truly uplifting experience.
The second stand out experience would be attending my works Christmas
party last year dressed, this was truly a great moment as I was the
only person en femme that evening, everyone was so kind and I even managed
to get a few slow dances in, and not with women !.
What one piece of advice would
you give to someone that has just found they are not the only tranny
in the world?
Find a local group, meet as many like-minded
people as possible, it is incredible the amount of groups there are
out there. Build up your confidence within that group. You will be surprised
how easy things become when you feel more confident.
Photo taken by Miss Jodie Lynn of the